Tonight I keep thinking about my Bleu, and how he just wanted me to play with him today. He wanted me to play King and Princess, a game that we just pretend he is the King, and I am the Princess. It always starts with making a "King hat" not a crown, he says those are for girls. But today I got as far as making him the hat and then I brushed him off to watch a show, while I cleaned the cupboard out, vacumed, did the dishes, brushed him off again, picked up Kaul from Pre-school, cleaned my bathroom, looked online..... it went on and on.

Tonight I wish I didn't have a clean cupboard, or an empty sink. I wish I was laying in bed thinking about being King Blue's Princess.

Tomorrow I will be better I promise!